As I mentioned in a previous entry, I recently attended my first YouTube Fan Fest last May 13. It was a lot of fun and ultimately very tiring. Since it was a YouTube event, of course, I had to make a vlog about it.
I was watching Tessa Violet’s video about the Enneagram the other day. Up until that video, I had no idea what The Enneagram was. With a bit of prodding and googling though, I gradually started to understand it.
I’m feeling particularly thoughtful and not necessarily in the good way.
It’s been a while since my last entry and I’ve been quite a busy bee over the past few days. I had an action-packed weekend full of friendship and new opportunities which left me really tired but very happy.
I spent a good ten minutes frantically running around my house because a) I had too much caffeine and b) the sunset made the sky so visually appealing to me that I had to capture it on camera.
How are you? This must come as a surprise for you. Nobody asks you how you are anymore, right?
Yeah, I get that. Nobody asks me how I am either. They just go straight to the point. What they need. Who they’re looking for. Where to get this or that. I think people just open with a “how are you” to be polite. Nobody actually stays long enough to get the reply.
But I want to know. I’m here to listen. How are you?
How are things going for you? Are you well? Is everything alright?
Are you afraid to answer that it’s not?
That’s okay. I’m not alright either. I have a lot on my mind. A vast majority of it doesn’t make sense or have any significant relevance but hey, there they are anyway. And that’s okay. It’s okay to not be alright. We don’t owe the world to be consistently positive. Things happen and we need to remind ourselves that not everything is going to be a cheerful leap down the rainbow slide. And that it’s okay, normal even, to be unhappy sometimes.
Consider this your reminder, maybe.
So, yeah. How are you?
Do you have something you want to get off your chest? Something troubling you? Something you’d like to share?
I’m here. Let it out. I’m listening.
Some time ago, I was invited by my university org (DLSU Writers’ Guild) to do a talk on the topic of heartbreak. I don’t know why they chose me to do it. I’m not a professional writer. I don’t even write prose all that much, to be honest. Either way, it happened. I did the thing and I got a certificate. Whoop whoop!
As much as I try to live without regrets, sadly I do regret my approach to that particular talk. It wasn’t as informative as I wanted it to be. So as reparation, I decided to write this.
Disclaimer: Again, I’m not a professional writer. My technique comes from personal experience which involved a lot of trial and error. This is just a guide for you to use if you want to. Okay? Okay, cool. 😀